Portraits of no one.

I’ve been drawing/painting these.  I actually made up a whole drawing pad (8×12) with little square patches of color on each page, but I picked the wrong color for the majority.  Not this beautiful green, but another lovely color which simply is too dark for the effect I was going for.  I did make it work a couple times, as in the one below, but it requires a different process to make the marks visible.  Pencil isn’t as useful on this red.

These aren’t anyone specifically, as usual.  I like to invent people.  But I’m not shying away from real person influences.  Some of them may look like people I know.  I’ve realized that when I simply invent onto the page/canvas/computer/whatever all the people have the same face.  And though I enjoy having a recognizable style, I’d like to avoid drawing clones or siblings all the time.  I think this project is mostly trying to highlight uniqueness and body modification.  I read this interesting blog about body mods and though most of it is unnecessary and sometimes frightening (to me) it’s also often inspiring.  The question is always posed: why?  Why do that to your body?  And to that I answer, why not?  Humans are creatures of curiosity and imagination, and what could be a more accessible vessel of expressing this than our own bodies?  Not an opinion widely shared, I’m sure, but I like it anyways.

[Here's a detail of the first.  Out of order, I know.  Deal with it.]

With the art thing, I guess I had to sit down and evaluate what I wanted to do.  I could very well get into a gallery, but I’m not incredibly enthusiastic about that right now.  I’ve always been praised for my semi realistic style, so I thought I’d indulge myself.  I could probably go on and on with these, and I don’t really care where they end up.  Instead of striving towards the contemporary and unexpected (which is impossible), I’d rather just do something.  I’m just enjoying the experimentation with materials and the finished products staring back at me.  Art is supposed to be fun, right?

Oh, and I finally buckled down and began properly photographing my work from this summer and beyond, so hopefully I’ll have those on here soon.  I shall attempt to keep up from now on, even if it is a bother.

As Alton Brown would say:  I’ve survived to create another day.  I could still be the next Iron Chef!  Oh wait…

a.r

Sometimes I try too hard, sometimes not enough.  But no matter what it all seems to come to nothing but mediocrity and failure.  Whatever purpose I’m here to fulfill I must not be contributing to it now.

Getting ready for WINTER.. x(

They were fun to make anyways

First time I’ve been remotely successful at something complicated (for me).  Got the hat pattern here at one of my favorite knitting websites and the easy mitten pattern here which I found via Google, and which appears to have other good patterns that I’ll have to check out.  So the moral of the story is:  the good thing about winter where it’s very cold is that you have excuses to knit awesome stuff.

Ta!

a.r

Church of the Apocolypse?

Ominous indeed.

This was inspired by my walk the other day bringing me past 2 churches across the street from each other, one called “First Lutheran…” and the other “First Presbyterian..”.  Now, where do these churches get the idea that they could possibly be the first of anything?  It just confuses me.  And we were also driving by another church which bore the claim of “Free” in front of its denomination.  As if it’s assumed that you would have to pay if the declaration of free was not made?  As Eddie puts it, “…the free Presbyterians, the locked up Presbyterians…”  etc and so on.  It’s just silly.  It’s another device to divide His people further and dig themselves deeper into titles and rituals.  Neither of which Jesus requires for worshiping him.  (Thank goodness.)

So in conclusion, ladies and jellyspoons, I’ll encourage you to come down to Last Lutheran this Sunday.  We’re over on the left as you leave town.  We probably won’t be the first place you’ll think of going… and probably the last place you wanna be.  But when all those other churches are going down, I promise we’ll be the last one standing.

Ciao ciao -

a.r

Bible and Alcohol

With routines I will master my lethargy.  With alcohol we begin to overcome emotional walls.

My routine involves reading the bible for 10 minutes (at least) every day.  However, I read wherever I feel compelled to.  If I’m too constrained by routine it becomes mediocre and tedious, which then causes me to discontinue what is good for me.  I did the Bible reading thing 4 days in a row, and I’ll do it again this week.  I hope it’s something I can keep up, because God always reveals things to me, one way or another, when I read his book.

Of course alcohol loosens inhibitions, and depending on the person drinking and one’s surroundings it may be an unfortunate situation.  For this reason (and obvious health concerns) I’ve always been hesitant to drink very often.  Oh, and it’s expensive.  With these things still withstanding, I still probably won’t drink very much as I’d rather spend hard earned money on art supplies rent.  But… what about the elaborate matrices we construct in our heads which prevent us from talking about things with people we care about?  Booze was my solution this weekend, and I think it will pay off.  I look at it as a jumping off point, in hopes that I won’t continue to hold my feelings inside and stop twisting things around in my head, which is apparently a girl thing.  I guess there isn’t much of a point to this paragraph, since my position on alcohol consumption isn’t that political or passionate.  I’m just disguising my personal shit I’m sharing on le interwebs.  >:D

Oh!  Also I’ve realized that I don’t drink very much because I don’t need alcohol to calm me down after a bad day or to have a good time.  It isn’t my solution to anything.  It’s just there, and I drink it sometimes because being drunk is hilarious to me.  And it makes me talk a lot.  If you haven’t, you should drink with me sometime, it is pretty fun.

In other personal!news, I am a happy nerdy artist girl who loves her irritating adorable nerdy boy.  Here’s to making that last for a long time!

On that note..

-a.r

the “Art” situation

This is the little area by the window in the living room I’ve set up for myself.  This wonderful cabinet hasn’t been used as what it’s supposed to be until now, and it holds most of my art stuff.  Of which there is a lot.  The little paintings aren’t really doing it for me anymore.  I’m itching to go crazy on some huge expanse of canvas, but as you can see, the area won’t allow that.  Never will I slander the time when I had a whole wall to myself in the art building.

Anyways, small paintings.  Though they are much easier to cart around, I feel confined.  Perhaps what I need is to do a many pieced big one.  Still have to figure out the logistics to that one though.  Also when embarking on a new direction, I am hesitant.  Believe it or not, I miss critiques!  Where are my BFAers when I need them?!  This is why I need to go to grad school.  aHA!  (I’m collecting reasons to justify it to myself.)  It’s also nice to tell people you will someday be going to grad school so they don’t think you’re just a loser whose major in art isn’t doing you much good since you’re just a server at Applebees.  “Why yes, I actually do have goals!”  Contrary to my listless lounging.

Aaanyways, enough of my complaining.  I’m off to take a walk!  Yay exercise!

-a.r

LACKOFMOTIVATIONAAAH

This plus TV sometimes and a couple of paintings.  Woo.  OFF MY ASS I MUST GET!

a.r

Life in the Midwest

WARNING: The following statement may invoke “Captain Obvious” remarks.

Italy and South Dakota are very different places.

Ok, duh.  But I have a point, I swear.  My life has been quite an interesting ride for the past couple months.  It wasn’t that difficult for me to adjust to all the places I was blessed to be able to exist in for awhile.  I felt comfortable to some extent even in Rome, where it’s almost impossible to be comfortable.  The ever present swarm of tourists and being almost clipped by motos and smart cars through the narrow streets is quite a contrast to the sprawling lawns and quiet neighborhoods of Brookings.

And the whole Midwest is like this (or at least the parts I’ve been in).  I had forgotten. On my walk this morning, I realized the whole city is dedicated to the people who live here.  There are almost always sidewalks which separate people from street with an extra patch of grass.  This is unthinkable for Rome!  There’s hardly any grass in Rome!  Cars drive slower, for the most part (jackasses are never truly absent anywhere, sadly), and the cities are much more integrated.  Even in Hayward and the Bay Area the residential areas and suburbs are separate from the business districts and downtowns.  The spaciousness gives one room to breathe, even if it sometimes spawns boredom.  I feel like this is a place I can appreciate living in, and when I look back I’ll be glad I did.

Not that I’m knocking Rome and/or the rest of Italy or big cities.  I loved having so much available to me, and an art community to boot.  It is something I am already missing.  And nothing compares to Rome.  Nowhere else can you experience such a rich history by simply taking a walk down the street in search of a cheap cappucino.  I have loved all the places I’ve been with all their quirks and craziness.  Yay traveling!

a.r

Messing around with the tablet

Started this today

Some work from Italy